This week's mindful mantra is about the good ole' fashioned count to three method. It is about knowing when you are feeling irritable and slowing yourself down in time to catch "it" before "it" speaks.
With Shane working most of the time over the past couple weeks and my juggling work and the stay-at-home-mom life, I have come to find myself much more irritable than usual. It could be due to a few areas of lack such as sleep, effort in my appearance or cleaning my house, but for some reason this feels different.
What's more strange is that I have been on the ball with my personal mindful practices.
I have been great with getting in, even a short, yoga practice daily. I have been meditating regularly and I finally found the perfect milk replacement for my morning tea which has been a total game changer for my mornings! (I had been skipping my morning black tea since changing to only buying vegan groceries and not enjoying almond, vanilla almond or cashew milk with it. I finally tried silk for coffee (soy milk) which I found in the creamer section and it is a major win for me. So delicious. Good-morning world!)
Therefore, with all things considered, my fuse should be long. The patience I am so well known for, should be in tact. So why isn't it?
Not sure. As beautiful as Autumn is, Summer is slipping further away which sucks. I love, love, love summer. That could have something to do with it. I think the lack of sleep has certainly been taking its toll, but I spend my days doing what I love, so I really can't figure this one out. This week call's for a 1,2,3 look at ME mantra.
I need to stop when I feel myself triggered and do the count. Breathe slower and bring my awareness to that moment. If I point the finger at myself and see where I am at, I give myself the time to cool down, if only for a few seconds, owning my next move. I can't excuse my impatience with things like, I was instigated, triggered or pushed to do anything, what happens after the 1,2.3 look at ME count is nothing but me and my choice.
I also know that what is of utmost importance while I am feeling this way is acceptance and understanding toward myself. Perfection is not the goal. I am human, and with that comes a whole slew of imperfections and mistakes. I get that. With that knowledge comes the strength to forgive myself for having a bad couple days (or week) and working with myself, rather than against, to get myself through this tough time.
If you too notice yourself being a bit less patient and a bit more irritable than usual, count with me: 1,2,3, look at ME. Stop yourself in the moment and give yourself the grace of time. Slow down your reactions and turn them into good choices with me!
This parenting gig is tough, so can all the other roles we take part in daily such as being a partner and working (if you do that too). That's why there is always time to stop and look back at yourself and make sure you are taking care of YOU.